“. . . you may tell the next generation that this is God, our God forever and ever. He will guide us forever.” Psalms 48:13-14 ESV http://bible.com/59/psa.48.13-14.esv
We recognize we know only a little. God will constantly disclose more to us. God, what can I do today to help anyone who is still sick? I want my relationship with you to be based on your truth and your will for my life. I abandon myself to you. I am an addict. I objectify myself and push limits of lust. Help me to stay sober today. I am powerless over lust and I cannot manage my own life.
I’m on the path of recovery but I’m also struggling. I’m trying to keep people around me by going to meetings, calling my sponsor and inviting folks over for dinner. But I can’t be with people all the time, and the truth is that I’d rather isolate myself than deal with recovery.
None-the-less, I’m trying to focus on others. Helping the next generation see that this is our God for eternity and that He will guide us forever is important in keeping me sober. It helps to focus on others instead of myself and my disease. I want attention. I crave positive feedback. I still get defensive when someone says something that challenges me. I am too easily paralyzed by a negative word or sometimes even a glance. I am insecure so trying to help others is frightening. I am in bondage to my self image. Relieve me from the bondage of self that I may better do your will. May I do your will always.
A Recovery Pilgrim 