“With my voice I cry out to the Lord; with my voice I plead for mercy to the Lord. I pour out my complaint before him; I tell my trouble before him.” Psalms 142:1-2 ESV http://bible.com/59/psa.142.1-2.esv
“Let me hear in the morning of your steadfast love, for in you I trust. Make me know the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. Teach me to do your will, for you are my God! Let your good Spirit lead me on level ground! For your name’s sake, O Lord, preserve my life! In your righteousness bring my soul out of trouble!” Psalms 143:8, 10-11 ESV http://bible.com/59/psa.143.8,10-11.esv
“My friend, allow me to do with you what I wish. I know how you view life and what is important from a human perspective. You think and make decisions based on what is beneficial to you right now. . . My friend, even as you desire to walk with me [Christ], you must also be willing to both suffer and rejoice. You must be as willing to be poor and needy as you are wiling to be full and rich.” – Thomas A Kempis
The sun is shining and I’ve had a good night’s sleep so why am I still feeling so low? I wonder if my life is skewed toward my need to feel good. Certainly the last eight months have taught me how to suffer. But I’d still rather be full and rich than poor and needy.
God works more in my great need because I am more open to his teaching. “To you I lift up my soul” would seem to indicate that my soul starts out in some lower state. I have thought that this lifting up is meant as a sacrifice of praise. But today, I wonder if it is a way to get ready for what God will do. If my soul is normally laid low, maybe through suffering, I may not be fully alive to what God has in store. “In your righteousness, bring my soul out of trouble.” Maybe this is a way to have God set my soul up for receiving what He has in store for me today.
“For to you I lift up my soul [so that you can make me know the way I should go].” It’s like waking myself up to what God has in store for me. It begins with fully trusting in him and in his steadfast love. Love that he whispers to me in the sunshine and in the bird’s songs first thing in the morning. “Let me hear in the morning of your steadfast love.” It is a matter of trust to see this as the call of God on my life today.
When my soul is lifted up, I am ready to suffer and rejoice in the same day. Then like Paul, “I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content.” Philippians 4:11 ESV