Distress

“Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and he delivered them from their distress.” Psalms 107:13 ESV http://bible.com/59/psa.107.13.esv

“Behold, the eye of the Lord is on those who fear him, on those who hope in his steadfast love, that he may deliver their soul from death and keep them alive in famine. Our soul waits for the Lord; he is our help and our shield. For our heart is glad in him, because we trust in his holy name. Let your steadfast love, O Lord, be upon us, even as we hope in you.”

Psalms 33:18-22 ESV http://bible.com/59/psa.33.18-22.esv

I’m miserable. I cannot do the next thing. I sit in distress like it is some comfy chair, but it is hard and my body aches from it. Still, I don’t get up. I have lost all hope. My addcition keeps me low, without energy. I stew in my own self-pity. I disconnect from others, as if iosolation will heal my wound, but it only deepens the pain. I long to be free, but I am trapped in my own selfish funk.

I am willing to be willing to hope in the steadfast love of the Lord. That is what I can do in this moment. I have only the strength to turn toward His face. I have no words, no wisdom. I have only enough resolve to surrender. My life is unmanagable without God. I am powerless to follow him so I simply surrender. I will wait for Him to lead me. I will wait on the Lord, and He will renew my strength.